Keep Calm & Carry On

I'm Katie. I'm 19, college student, and a dancer. I'm stubborn, blunt and awkward. I'm flattered you've even considered visiting.

One of the worst feelings is disappointing your parents, and the worst part about that is when they try to act like they’re not disappointed when they are. Hearing the ‘Oh well the other school is just as good’ or ‘you’re still going to have fun’ speeches is really getting on my nerves. My parents are happy I got into such great schools but of course they were always waiting on the one letter from USC. In a way it was like nothing was really set in stone until I received that letter. I’m happy with where I am going to school next year…it’s a great school in a beautiful area but I can’t help but feel like crap everytime I think about that stupid rejection letter and how it not only devastated me but devastated my parents as well. Ugh

I wish i had bigger nails -_-

I wish i had bigger nails -_-

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Don’t sit there and bring me down every chance you get, don’t compare me to my sister anymore, don’t act like what I say doesn’t matter to you or anyone else for that matter, don’t call me lazy just because i’m not at USC right now, don’t criticize me for every little thing I do and after you’ve done all of this don’t you dare come and tell me that you’re happy I got into Pepperdine and got out of Mt. Sac in 2 years. In fact, don’t even talk to me because you should know by now that I don’t want to hear anything from you anymore. You’ve brought me down enough over the last 20 years and once I move out that is the last time you will ever bring me down. I’ve let you yell at me, criticize me and control me for 20 years without ONCE disagreeing with you or even fighting with you for that matter. So, with that said, after summer you will no longer have any control over me, you won’t be able to criticize me and you will not be able to bring me down like you have been. Nothing will ever be good enough for you and I have accepted that and I have accepted the fact that you will never be the person I want/need you to be in my life. But, once I move out of this house, I am hoping you miss me and realize how badly you treat me because you will never get the chance to change the past 15-20 years. You being like this has made me stronger and has taught me so many lessons…one of them being what not to do when I have children of my own. I’ve dealt with you for too long without opening my mouth and honestly it stops here. 

No matter what I do or say my mom is never happy. I’m getting really sick and tired of trying to please that woman.